Feels so shit

Mans im so sorry to the wicked act :(
i just broke down.
im sorry
i worked so hard and i eventually decided not to go on stage :(
sorry
i just felt so shit
everything has just struck me and i went out of control
Lucky i had my friends :) awesome ppls :)
SIBEL I MISS YOU MANS HAVENT TLKED TO YOU IN AGES :( LIKE ITS BEEN FOREVERRRR :( AHAHAH

well i feel so shit:
1. dumped wicked act because of some guy
2. broke down because of some guy
3. went crazy because of some guy
but what did he do?
Not reply. Silence. deleted me off fb. had so much fun with his friends. dont give a crap. broke up though a text? is that what a guy should do? wait not a guy. a chick who has no guts
Why am i like this?

I guess im not used to it yet i guess.
well okay vivo, calm down. chill. whats the point? why try when you know theres no point?
Really this person was not even worth your time vivo. chillax. why do so much when in return you get nothing? exactly
NOW I NEED A CHILL PILL hahas

Well just got my report back too............................. WORST THAN HALF YEARLIES ..... i tried as well in this one and yet i did shit. wow. wow. well i didnt try thattt much i mean i wasted my holidays because of that guy. during the two weeks after i didnt study much because of that guy.
Well im not blaming him but im blaming myself for fallign for him. Well 5 more weeks to hsc i should forget abt him. hes not worth my time. i tried to fix it. he didnt. like friend said prob finding other chicks atm to move on to. or maybe fell for another thats why hes so freaken happy. i dnno but i shouldnt care anymore...

*sigh im so depressed abt reports :( i thought i would do okay at least... i mean well maths was just come on expected. im happy.. but wtf 13 A''S FOR 4U? WTFF? THATS A BIT TOO MUCH... wow IM SO DISAPPOINTED ... TRY HARDER FOR HSC VIVO OR ELSE YOUR LIFE IS OVER :@

lets forget abt him

i hope i can

please someone help me......