AM I STUPID OR WHAT?

OMFG I BELIEVED ANNE THE SECOND TIME....AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE A JOKE..
OMGAH
I AM REALLY
GULLIBLE
AM I REALLY THAT STUPID OMGAH


oh gawd this is how stupid i am omgah

You try so hard to be strong but sometimes trying so hard for too long leads you to breaking down.

Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

“The saddest people I’ve ever met in life are the ones who don’t care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there’s nothing to make it last.”

Taxed off Khiem

spell ur name,look the meaning of each letter in ur name

　

A = Gifted

B = Less Patience

C =Innocent

D =Talented

E =Good Heart

F =Feel 4 Others

G =Logical Thinking

H =Calm

I =Respected

J =Enjoy Life

K =Loved by All

L =Arrogant

M =Great Person

N =Smiling

O =Sportive

P =Intellige nt

Q =Cool

R =Unpredict able

S =Romantic

T =Proud

U =Genuine

V =Angry

W =Practical

X =Crazy

Y =Caring

Z =Pretty


So im Angry, respected, angry, respected, gifted, smiling

......... wth....

Thanx to the bigger bang, i have decided to go back and listen to more korean songs

transition from krn to chinese now back to krn

Bigger bang YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME :)

Duongy

Dearest Anne,

AHAH only did this caused you asked for it:P JOKES. But fine a long as post just for you. :) Hmm i think we got closer together this year actually because of the UMAT Medentry workshop where we met all the fort street ppls. And because my second cousin invited us to their beach outing, we even grew closer together even more. Thanx vincent :) We talked more about boys and just yerh stuff in general. I got to know you better and boy did i not know that you NEVER HAD A BF. SHOCKING =O

Anne you are the best <3 You were always there for me and i will like to do the same. Although you tease me ALLLLLL the time about my vision and practically EVERYTHING (my face etc), you help and guide me through everytime i was "lost" :) Just saying youre awesome :) Thanx anne.

And i still remember the part where you joked with me about your imaginary bf. Gosh i was so gullible and probably still am. BUT THAT WAS THE FUNNIEST MOMENTS AHAHAH

And i will always remember you <3 Forever in my heart babe :) Love you anne <3

Love Vivo

P.s THAT'S LONG enough right :P
p.s.s you suck
P.s.s.s we should hang out more, enoughh NON AZN BOYS, time to go azn :)

Shaz

Dear Shaz,

I dont know if you can read this but thankyou for the letter <3. And everytime you teased me i knew it was a joke, and i like it actually :) Thankyou for being such a great friend during the 6 years. We werent really close until year 10 when we both started liking raymond lam and thankyou for helping me and supporting me during my darkest moments such as breakups and family problems. You can make fun of me, but when im sad etc you are just there for me to turn to :) I love you shaz and we must meet up and spend time together after the hsc :) ALWAYS <3. And thanks for everything in that letter, supporting me and do know that whatever happens, i will always be there for you <3 Love you shaz

Love Vivo

Leslie is coded Lesbian (theres a reason for that AHAHAHAHAHHHAHHSHSA AHAHAHHASH LAUGHING SO FREAKEN HARD)

OMGAH SERIOUSLY. Throughout the whole day i was reminiscing and i came by this event that was so FREAKEN HECTIC. GOSH SEFTON'11 I LOVE YOU.

It has finally hit me. We are graduating tomorrow. Tomorrow will be the last time i see those lovely faces (well except hsc) but I REALLY AM I excited but also sad :(

Coon

This girl is the fken best. I got to say i never knew her since year 11. I guess it was because i was always in the community stream and the group changes i had as i moved from community to selective stream. BUT THIS GIRL IS FREAKEN AMAZING. i love her so much. She has always been there at my darkest moments. I REALLY HOPE WE KEEP IN TOUCH WOMAN. OMGAH DONT LEAVE ME! :(

please dont let me cry in front of people tomorrow thanx :)

<3 Vivo

Class of 2011 Concert

Amazing. That is the BEST concert i have ever seen. EVERYONE WAS putting their effort and was just so into it and it was such an amazing performance.

Today is one of the greatest day ever. We had double maths and it wasnt even entirely that boring. During the second period, k, l, s and i were gathering the chem students and we gave Fearnside a surprise group hug. OMGAH suffocated from that LOLS. And we went out again and then went in to give him another surprise and presented him his pressies. But he was emotionless. *Sigh ah wells. BUT I LIKE HIS ALBERT EINSTEIN LOOK that steven took. HAHAHS FUNNY :) And then we went back to maths and gave dike a surprise too :) AHHASH TIRAMISU. YUMM. FKEN DELICIOUS AS. OMGAH BEST LESSON EVER. ATE and just didnt do any work :) Ms D. cried :( OMGAH :( :'( she cried for us :'( omgah :'(

AND OMGAHHHH TODAY IT DIDNT END WITH MATHS BUT PHYSICS. OMGAHH WE JUST TOOK PICTURES AND DID NOTHING. OMGAH BEST THING EVER :) OMGAH eren 13 years growing together <3 AND AGAIN i ran around with vvnh to find her lost bag. so much running :( LOSING WEIGHT  :) HAHAS

AND TIME FOR THE CONCERTT.
DUN DUN DUN DUN....
OH YERHH. CHANGED INTO clothes and EVERYONE Looks so pretty esp with the make up. Hmm and again i didnt put any on LOLS. NATURAL :) HAHHAS

AND at exactly 150 the concert started.

FREAKEN AMAZING THING I EVER SEEN. Every performance was great. and omgah DAVID (i fink) was in the SUMO SUIT. OMGAH FKEN SO CUTE ESP WHEN HE TRIES TO GET UP. HAHAHAHHAS THAT WAS SO FKEN HILARIOUS AHAHHAHHASH THE BIG STOMACHE AHNAHAHAHHHAHAHAS. AND dammit didnt take any fotos backstage .. damnnn LOLS. AND OMGAH HOEDOWN THROWDOWN WAS SO FKEN GOOD. OMGAH before they were so unprepared and now they can give such a fabulous performance. It was great. FREAKEN GREAT. The umbrella and the broom HAHAHAHAHAH NOW THAT WAS SO FREAKEN FUNNY. AHHAHAS

FKEN HELL. BIGGER BANG'S LUCIFER WAS FKEN GREAT. OMGAH I WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN. IT LOOK SOOOO COOOOOOL AND GOOD. OMGAHH AAND THE REST TOO.. (forgot what the songs were called) BUT SERIOUSLY, THE BEST EVER <3

the concert ended with high school musical where practically the whole grade was meant to be participate. We ran out and ran around the hall and up the stage singing high school musical we're in this together. We ran and threw streamers around. AHH IT WAS FUN AND THIS WAS SO FREAKEN GREAT. I MEAN THE WHOLE GRADE PARTICIPATED (Except some) BUT STILL THE SONG <3

And when the whole school left, we started giving hugs to everyone and almost everyone cried. For some reason the worse sight to see was guys crying. It was rare and it does hurt and make me feel sad. <3

OH GAWD I LOVE SEFTON CLASS OF 2011 :) LOVE YOU GUYS <3 I never really cried because i wanted to stay strong and not cry in front of anyone. I have to stay strong :)

Sometimes i try to push myself and be optimistic about things. But sometimes after thinking about it, being happy and optimistic would it actually help me in getting into optom? i dont think so. Im such a fail in everything; life, studies and relationships. I cant do anything right. Im such a disgrace to the family. What if people ask my mum and dad, "how did your daughter go for umat or hsc" How can they possibly reply. Im such a disgrace. They wont be able to look at me the same way. I was tutored more than my sister, and i at least did 4u and yet i cant get into optom. I really know i cant with this  shit umat. A really high atar wont help it at all. Im really sure of it. What kind of people want a stupid person like me? Im serious. Im such a big fail. But nevertheless i will still try for my hsc and obtain a high atar, but i know that my dreams have crashed and died. I can not get into optom.

NOTES:

i hate myself for being such a forgetful person. I need to remind myself to:
- ask mr atko for a formal note
- pay for yearbook
- give in note for being absent
- bring jeans and shoes for concert
- pay david for khattar
- bring sheets for lisa and terry
- uac application
- bring motors and generators book
- bring production of materials book
- PICK UP ENA AT 730 >.<

so much stuff to do before the end of friday :(

Shopaholic

BORING FREE PERIOD. BORING CHEM LESSON. BORING MATHS LESSON.

Chem: Fearnside wont let us eat :( until like last 20 mins :( and YAYs took more pictures :)
Maths: Miss actually made us do work and said last 5 mins, we can then take pictures. >.> wtf?

EURO WAS FK WOW. GO EREN. GO YEAR 12'S!! smash the teachers :)
HAHAS

anyways went parra shopping for Mr C. shirt, ash's concert shirt and my concert shoes. Did more shopping with vvnh and taduh became a shopaholic. HAHASH took so many pictures. :)

AHHAHAHA :)

OH GAWD. looked at umat. such a fken big disappoinment. i cant believe i did that shit. fken hell. wtf. omgah i fken want to cry now. seriously. i dont fink i can get into optom. fk. im such afken stupid girl. im so stupid. i cant get anything i want. fken hell. i never knew i was that fken stupid. im so dumb. aroudn 12000 ppl did it and yet i cant beat a majority of them. im so stupid. fk. my life is over.

Was tlking to a friend from school and we started talking about the moment when we were being soo silly chasing boys from tutor LOLS. Oh gawd i still remember how we saw the two guys we liked and adored so much, at the festival at cabra. OH gawd. How cute. seriously. HHAHHAS cant believe i was that silly to do that. LOLS. i was like a girl squealing looking for the guy crazily. AHAHHHAS seriously that is hilarious if i look back at that. I guess i was in the state of a break up and i started to like look for more guys and fell for one and i unno but i find it stupid if anyone does that. Using people to make the other party jealous. i WAS like that. LOLS. hate myself back then. LOLS Anyone who does that is really sad and need to learn how to consider peoples feelings LOLS. I unno but im glad im not like that anymore LOLS.
BUT I FIND IT FUNNY how i took an interest in that guy along with my friend first time we met at the party LOLS. And bam we exchanged phone numbers and added each other on facebook. FK AHAHAHSH WOW I REMEMBER THOSE DAYS. IT WAS FUN LOLS. Wow cant believe i still remember what i did lols. i was such a silly kid back then LOSL

It has finally came :(

The fact school is over in just 2 days has finally hit me. Its depressing how we will never see each other and the daily routine is over. Its a new life. I want to start anew but i want the people that had entered my life to never leave it. I want to meet new people but i dont want the loss of any friends... if that makes any sense. But *sigh

Its weird. Graduation on friday and then beach. Last outing with everyone for now.

<3

Last Tuesday

Today was quite a fun day. English was first period and it was fun as :) We had chocolate cake and Mr. C got a shirt from us and the whole class had to give a short lil message. HAHAH i didnt know what to say. But the cake was lovely and nice tehehe :) Gonna get fat after this week :( AHHAHAHA Its funny how in year 12 we can just wonder around the classrooms etc. I went off to the canteen to get drink, though obviously i had to get a note from Mr C. but still :) It was lovely:) AHAHAS we were about to use papertowels for the cake. AND GUESS WHAT MR C. DOESNT FIT :(

Well recess was hmmm okay? Cornn broke down crying and then sophie cried. its contagious. Me and anita were like....okay and hugged LOLS. Dont really remember exactly what happened at recess, since it wasnt that great to me. LOLS because i missed out the "flash mob" of the macarena dance. dammit. :(

FREE PERIOD. OMGAH THE BEST FREE PERIOD WE EVER HAD T___T DAMN I WISH WE CAN DO THAT AGAIN. OMGAH every two minutes david would pretend coughing and we would move to the next seat, just to piss Mr R. off. Speed dating LOLS. He was freaken pissed as LOLS. Soap was busy recording and taking pics :) AHAHAH and then we went to take the books and misplace them to piss him even off, but damn the lady had to clean it in the end, so we stopped. But gawd that was fun. AAHHAS whats funny was that david changed the "preliminary & HSC Course" to "PmS & intercourse". ROFL FKEN HILARIOUS. OMGAH this free period was so freaken fun. We took pictures and videos and pissed Mr R off :) Ahhhhh awesome free period.

OMGAH BEST PHYSICS CLASS EVER <3 We surprised miss with her pressies, by having Peter pretending that there was a cockroach in the cupboard. And there go miss, being the lovely teacher opening and taduh teh pressie :) TEHHEHE The necklace WAS FREAKEN PRETTY OMGAHHHH. I LOVE IT. AND THE PERFUME SMELT SOO FREAKEN NICE. AHHAHAHA AND THE F IN EXAMS BOOK WAS FKEN HILARIOUS ROFL. AND TADUH out comes eren and the photo frame of each of us that was taken yesterday :) omgah SO FREAKEN PRETTY. AND HEY i didnt look that bad :) ahahahs but wow :) I like it. and we started writing messages and yerh. AND OH MS S. GAVE US JUICE AND MORE BISCUITS TO EAT :) LOVELY TEACHER <3 THIS IS THE BEST PHYSICS CLASS :) IT was fun, especially after we took so many pictures. and damn Ms S is taller than me :( AHHASH and that made her feel better LOLS.
But nooooooo when everyone left, Max gave her a hug and she started to cry :( taduh group hug time :) HAHAHAS FUN DAY :)

AND REHEARSALS TIME :) OMGAH MY FREAKEN SHIRT IS SO LOW. i need to wear a singlet or else ppls can see my boobiess :( HAHAHS EVERY group was so awesome. omgah RAGE QUIT. FK THAT WAS SO FKEN GOOD. LIKE WOWW. Danny and Edward moves matched Stans beatboxing. It was just freaken wow. Everyone did an outstanding job. AND HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL AT THE END. LOLS we had to like sing it a bit. damn i only know the first line  AHHAS

OVERALL FUN DAY though the rehearsals ended at 5 instead. FUN DAY :) Hope tomorrow is better. :)
Oh and got my estimated ataar. I improved but meh. Doesnt mean i will get that in the HSC. So checkign UMAT next time LOLS

On facebook, people from primary school are uploading pictures of us :( I miss primary school when i could do whatever i wanted and i just was free and outgoing and yerh :(

i miss my primary school friends, lost contact with a majority of them :(

Dress Rehearsals

OMGAH TOMORROW IS DRESS REHEARSALS *SIGH
Well have to bring jeans and some flats *sigh i have no black pants to dance in and i dont really like to wear tights. ODDBALL there. Hmm im kinda nervous and hope tomorrow wont turn into another weirdo vivo moments LOLS. But yerh and i dont even know the lyrics for the last one, High school musical.

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see
Theres a chance
That we have
And we take it

Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Let's get to it
Come on everyone!

Day 1 - Write some basic things about yourself

Im nosy. Im careless. Im selfish. Im a bitch. Im evil. Im ugly inside and outside. Im heartless. And no i dont need you saying ngaw no its not true, because this is who i define BUT i will change for the better.
I am annoying most of the times. I know im retarded and weird and quiet.

SIDENOTE: Just realised by the time i finish this, its time for the HSC.

Last Monday

Today is the last monday :( The beginning of the day was alright and it just went boohoo after. Had english first and THE BALLOONS THAT FILLED A BLOCK WERE SO FREAKEN PRETTY :) the colours :) Bad thing was that some people were annoyed because of the pop. ah wells. I wanted to take one home :( yerh but noooo apparently Mr F saw it and told Ellis (apparently as said by soap). WTF? OMGAH YOU SUCK >.> And taduh she starts popping all those balloons. OMFG ELLIS LET US HAVE OUR FUN FOR ONCE :@ gosh. The balloons actually made me feel happier and better. The fun etc. Well english was as boring as ever. WE NEVER DO ANYTHING BUT SIT THERE OMGAH.

RECESS WAS FUN actually. Well just paid for formal and took pictures for class photo. Oh gawd. I was paying for formal and thus i wasnt part of the english photo. *sigh guess ms lobasso wont be seeing me then :( but we took photos for chem tehhehe anita <3

PHYSICS WAS FUN TOO :) Ms S. gave us milk and cookies :) i had 3 but i gave 1 away to stan since he wanted an extra one LOLS. so nice vivo :) tehehe we only did work for the first half of the lesson and we started taking pictures :) tehhehe. GOSH vvnh keeps squeezing my cheeks :( LOLS fun lesson especially when we didnt do much work though max's ass was right in maa facee >.> STINKY FATASS LOLS

everything was going well until we had the meeting. ellis full told us off. gosh such a bitch >.> if we muck up again, no concert or graduation assembly. whatever. and FK VVNH PULLED MY HAIR. UGHHH HURTED LIKE HELL AHAHHAS.

Lunch was boring and i was on a mission of searching kitty and yerh lunch kinda made me moody for some reason. I was just down and not hyperactive. LOLS. And i just went to homebush library. fk for like 3 hrs i completed 1 3u paper and did a 4u question i couldnt do earlier. better than what i will do at home LOLS

BAD NEWS: UMAT RESULTS ARE UP. FML. IM TOO CHICKEN TO CHECK. ITS ALMOST 7PM AND I HAVE NOT YET CHECKED T__T. I DONT HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE IT. T_______T UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH SAVE ME SOMEONE. OMGAH.

OMGAH DANNY YOU BEAST!! GOSH WHY SUCH A SMART ASS FOR! OMGAHH YOU BEAST.. OMGAH SERIOUSLY YOU ARE SUCH A BEAST. OMGAH

and APPARENTLY DAVID DID GREAT TOO. OMGAH T___T DAVID WHY ARE YOU SO FREAKEN SMART FOR. OMGAH.

DAVID AND DANNY,. THE BEAST OF SEFTON HIGH SCHOOL.


and probably getting my estimated atar tomorrow. I really hope i get better but i highly doubt it since i drop for most subjects :(

One should treasure their partner because before they know it, everything, happiness, joy, can disappear. Each travel their own separate paths. So treasure what you have now because before you know, your life can change completely as one walks away from your life.

This is a short film

Marriage

"The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

Do have a real happy marriage!"

YAYS I CAN GO FORMAL NOW :)

Old songs

Listening to this song now. Its old but its really nice. The piano in the beginning. It sounds so lovely. :) I think its about romance. How fate has not brought the two together or something. Thats what im hearing. But it sounds really nice :) I tend to like old songs. :)

This is another one im listening to :) Its a sad song but really everyone got to love this song. I can only play a bit of it on the piano. Cant wait till hsc is over and I CAN FINALLY go back and learn the piano and learn this song :)

OH YESH BLOCK IT RAYMOND :)  your sexy lips are mine no matter what :)

 Quote raymond: 原來做人真的很好玩。上班做事有人誇讚，追女孩又開心。

AHAHAHAHHA YOU ARE FREAKEN CUTE AS >.< MARRRY MEEEEEE :(

OMFG SO CUTTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Should I go or not?

Hmm there are formal tables problems now. We have a table of 8 and a table of 7, splitting 15 of us. *sigh but then the 7 prob have to split but where to? *sigh

maybe if i didnt go it probs solves the whole problem. Im the only one who hasnt paid so yerh. Hmmm..... with all the problems i just want to go out and have some fun. But its because of this selfish reason that problems have arised. *sigh

Dont know if i should go anymore? It was fun formal shopping but the troubles it causes. I dont feel like going. I want to have fun bt the table problems. hmmm *sigh I dont know now. LOLS

Formal Shopping

Turned it to be alright. Well i was moody at first and stuff so kinda ruined the thing. Got better afterwards after some talk with friends on ebuddy :) yays lucky i had fone. coon and niggah had their couple moments and ben and i were just texting to ppls LOLS

yupp im a thirdwheeler :( FUNNY NIGGAH GOes to the waiter "can i please have a spoon" BLINDYY WOMANN YOUR SPOON IS BEHIND YOUR BOWL AHAHHAHA freaken funny as LOLSS..
but i shouldnt be talking AHAHHA though niggah was worst, some chick goes two minutes and i took it as two sets and i was liek noo udon LOLS. SHE GAVE me the wtf face.. LOLS

udon wasnt that great but yerh..
OMGAH COON AND I TRIED ON DRESSES. I TRIED one.. she tried three HAHAHA.

DAMN BLURRY but you can kinda see it.

 Coon suits those kinds. I LOOK PREGNANT GREAT T__T it looks alrite in person :( bt yyerh its 200 bucks and coons 100 bucks. DRESSES ARE SO FREAKEN EXPENSIVE. oh gosh no money :(

Hmm this dress isi alriteeee ... but i wanna see other ones :)

Hope i can go formal shopping again next week. So study hardcore this whole week then sunday shop a bit for a few hours thats all. Doubt i buy online. What if it doesnt suit my skin colour and body shape and yerh.

OH EM GEE

OMFG i just realised that my eyes are retarded :( yerhh its not straight at all :( *sigh turned eye still exists. and omgah retarded eye lids. fk .... wtf? GOSH .. i fink not enough sleep or wat.

LOOK AT THE EYE. RETARDED OMGAH T_____T 

gawd dammit. my eyes are retarded.. LOOK STRAIGHT VIVO T___T yerhh no wonder people laugh at me. oh gawd. look at this :( *sigh every luvo i make, my eyes are retarded its not straight. i just realised this. wow gawd.

i did not realise this until i started checking my phone and saw this,.... oh gawd.... my face is totally bleh.

Im such a weird oddball. When people talk about my eyes i get offended and hurt. When i talk about it, i just wanna go bleh at my own face....

I want people to accept me for who how i look. But at the same time i want normal eyes :(

Sunrise

Woke up at 5am because i couldnt sleep. Fml. I want to go back to bed so badly. But yerh i didnt do much work yesterday either. Might as well do some study now where i wont be distracted and get scared shitless.

AND SO PRETTY SUN RISING. The scenery its pretty. :) Except that my windows has those thing but nevertheless its pretty. I like it. Waking up to this scenery is nice. Normally i wake up to my lil sis screaming or something but wow never knew the world can be this pretty. I wish the one i love can see this with me. I wish we can just sit on a bench and watch the sun rise together hand in hand. Just staring at the beautiful scenery. But since when do dreams actually come true? Hardly.

Lets wake up at 5am or 6 more often. Less people around me and that means i wont overthink too much.

I must regain it :( i dont care i have to :(

Sorry no can do, i cant do it anymore

Its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.

From Yaowei

OMGAH SO HAPPY :) I FOUND A WAY TO CONTROL MYSELF :) YESH YESH YESH YESH WOOTS :) YESH :) TEHHEHEHEEHHEHHE AND ITS A SECRET :) AHHHHHHH :)

Why am i so pathetic? Why is it that hard to let go? I think i pushed him toooo much and pressured him a bit too much that he got fed up talking to me.
FACT: I dont have him anymore and that makes me scared and more overreactive

I guess thats the same with everyone else. They act differently when they are in a relationship and when they arent.

I know since primary till high school everyone has been teasing about my eyes and hence why i took an operation in year 9 again. Yet everyone makes fun of it again. I really am afraid of getting another one. In year 9 i was afraid that i would never wake up again and likewise now. The fact that people still make fun of my eyes makes me want to take another operation. Im scared that the operation mite fail or something happens to me in the end. After the operation stuff appeared different and i had patches on my eye. I only did this because not only did doctor said to do it, but because everyone looks weirdly at me. I want to look normal and hence i took this operation. And now do i really have to take another one to stop all this?

I was born this way. Cant people just accept the way i appear and not make fun of it? I know that they are joking but it hurts.

And should i wait? i dont know anymore. im confused. What if the outcome is not what i wanted, does that mean i wasted my time? *sigh what is right? What is wrong? What should i do? 

lately life has been really hard to handle.

Well enough said.

Dedicated to Khiem Binh Nguyen

Really this guy is the best guy i ever seen in my life. I really have never met a guy like you. You are nice, forgiving and funny and you are really awesome. I dont know what to say but im sorry for everythign i have done to you. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. You are one awesome guy. Its my loss for not treasuring you but its another girl's gain to have you. You are really awesome great. My vocab is really bad dammit. You are forgiving and you consider how i feel and not yours. You make me hate you and shitz but at the same time you are getting hurt. You are really one awesome guy. Yes its a shame that you are not manly in certain situations, but overall i think you make a great man. :) We have broken up and my next relationship has failed and yet you try your best to cheer me up and make me feel better. I can never find a great friend like you, so considerate and caring.

Khiem, you can be klame at times, but thats what i like about you i guess :) Thanx for everything, trying to cheer me up and thinking of being train buddies with me in the future:) You are really great. And i mean it.

Thanx for everything. And sorry for everything i did to you in the past 2 months. I hope it wasnt hard on you, but glad everything is over, you forgave me and now we can be friends again :)

Thankyou Khiem the shim who lives in a bin :)AHAHHA

<3 Vivian

Awesome ppls

khiem nguyen says (8:14 PM)
AHAH

but i dont want you to be sad

or else ill get sad too

Allan xD says (8:28 PM)

if ur happy then u'll make me happy

=D


THEY ARE SUCH AWESOME PPLS <3 THANX <3<3<3 LOVE YOU GUYS :) seriously do :)
THANX FOR BEING THEIR AT MY DARKEST MOMENTS THANX <3

BOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OMGAH
LIFE IS HILARIOUS :)
WHEN IS MY LIFE OVER? JUST COME to an end already...

WTF?

........ INternet explorer closed and the video is still on................


wtf?
=O

DECIDED :)

Yesh i decided that i should go formal now :)
I just saw the lovely dresses at Trinity's formal held yesterday. 

okayyy........ hope this doesnt complicate the stuff >.< and yesh lucky monday is the last day to pay :)

Now formal shopping tomorrow ..... yesh i decided to go today and i decide to do formal shopping tomorrow.. VERYYYY quick. LOLS

i just dont want to spend tooo much money on it. so expensive.
I WANT A YEARBOOK CAUSE WE GET A FREEEE RING :) BT sadly its 40 bucks...:(

FORMAL: $110 :(
YEARBOOK: $40
Dresses etc: > $100

FML.

THATS A LOT OF MONEY T_______T

SCARYYY ans THE END OF DR O. I THINK =O

I want an honest relationship with someone who will be afraid losing me.

FUCK YOU

YERH FUCK YOU .. FUCKEN PISS OFF..

freaken liars..

SEXY BABE :)

MY SEXAYYEE BABE :) I LOVE YOU RAYMOND FOREVER :) OH I LOVE HIS DANCE AND HIS BODY OH SEXYY.. AND WOW THE WAY HE TOOK THE JACKET OFF.. OH YOU ARE HOT HOT AND CHOK :)

OH BBY I LOVE YOU :)

OMGAH SORCEROR AND THE WHITE SNAKE.. COMING OUT 29TH SEPTEMBER, I WANT TO WATCH :) BUT WHO CAN I WATCH IT WITH =O :(

Sorceror and the White Snake

Oh raymond why do you have to be so cute and hot and chok for :( >.<

AND OMGAH NOOO THAT KISS IS MINEEE

LAM FUNG YOU ARE SO ADORABLE :)

EVIL RAYMOND LOLS I LIKE :)

AHAHAHHA EPISODE 5 AND 6 OF MENS WITH NO SHADOWS HERE I COME :)

OMGAH VAMPIRE DIARIES

I WANNA WATCH VAMPIRE DIARIES :( BUT I MUST RESIST:(
MUST NOT WATCH
MUST STUDY
MUST
MUST
MUST

K YOU CAN SMACK ME IF I DONT STUDY T_____T

WTF?

I get blamed at for everything. Like okay its my fault that i did this and that but is it necessary saying "its all your fault. always you" OKAY? WTF? i have feelings too.... i get hurt too >.> Stop pushing everything onto me. Sometimes i have to agree it is my fault but its also yours >.> STOP BLAMING ME FOR EVERY SINGLE THING T___T

i seriously sound like some psycho chick now.

great

history repeating itself

Not in mood

i hate how people treat me like trash when i try my best to reach out to them. i unno but that just makes me pissed and ruins my mood.

Maybe its best if i dont even give a fuck abt them and just practically stuff them and treat them like trash? yerh i mite as well do that

I get the message. I give up.

Cant study. Lots of things on top of my mind.
Confused
Dizzy
Headache

*sigh
at this rate goodbye 97/98 atar

Dizzy and confused. What do i do?

DOOM

THE WORST THING THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE:

UNEXPECTEDLY SEEING MY RAYMOND LAM POSTER FALL DOWN :( nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

ITS DYING :(

The weather was pretty ish

So freaken tired :(
Double maths = boring... worst day ever LOLS
Chemistry = YAYS SOO FUN :) I didnt even copy half the stuff down and fearnside wasnt there so there i go blabbing on and on. :) we just talked and did a bit of work. OMGAH GOTTA SAY ANITA IS THE CUTEST CHICK I EVER SEEN.. seriously the way she says gonna get a bf in uni >.< AHHH WHAT A CUTIE :) Honestly its been a while since we had sun chem lessons where we just talked on and on. This lesosn reminded me of ahem leslie's dream AHAHH of lesbian chicks mans :) OHH SOOOO FUNNAYYEEE couldnt stop laughing ROFL.. AHHAHA
English =  BORING. fah out cree just talks on and on.. so boring.. i just did maths in english wow :)

AND NO 4U AT LUNCH :) WOOTS :) OMGAH SO FUNNAYE how anita, soap and i just cheered and  ms khattarr walks out and goo did i hear someone cheering.. whats worst was JO AHAHAHH SO FREAKEN FUNNAYE THE WAY MISS WHEN TSK TSK JOANNE hahahhas

AND touch footy was alrightt... ms pham is woa =O  WOW yerh

and 4u was long kinda boring but HAD LOLLLIES :) TEHEHHE

definitely a tiring day since i talk freaken a lot :( so tiring and freaken hell IM SICKKK T_____________T

TPG YOU SUCK

WTF? i just recharged and they sent a text saying i went over capped and now i have to pay an extra 20 bucks for the thingo. BT WTF I DIDNT TEXT THAT MUCH =O

On the website i checked it and it said i had 313 left to spend... wtff? DODGY..
AND I CANT download whatsapp :( im soooo nooooob

=O tpg........ SOMETHING IS FISHYYY

Just got to say i really do have caring friends..  LOVE YOU GUYS :)

WHERE IS MENS WITH NO SHADOWS EPISODE 3? =O

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY RAYMOND LAM..................... IM STILL WAITING FOR YOU T____T PLEASE WHERE ARE YOU T_____T

RAWRRR

I cant wait till graduation comes :) I will miss the daily routine. I will miss the lovely faces except eric and terry thanx :) I will miss the "atmosphere" sefton brings. BUT I CANT WAIT BECAUSE IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE wait no after hsc im free :(

If we dont learn from out mistakes how can we expect our life to be better in the future. To move on and step forward one must learn how to not repeat their mistakes and learn to give chances at times.

Everyone is selfish; selfish for more love. But does that allow them to do whatever they want and expect everyone to follow?

Well, love is complicated. I was obssessed i believe. But now since i lost him but i gained a friend i guess its alright. We must forgive and forget but this takes a long time and courage for one to do that.
I hope i can grow to become like this; a person who can forgive and forget and give chances and not repeat mistakes in the future.

Everyone wants chances. I do. You do. But if you want chances you must give the other chances too.
I want to be less of a selfish person.

NOW HSC HERE I COME :) BRING IT ON :)

a rainbow after the storm

THINGS THAT just made my day

- RAYMOND LAM <3
- the fact he has forgiven me and that we can be friends now :)
- the fact that I COULD DO THE SHM QUESTION and A couldnt LOLS :) i feel smart :)
- the fact that im surrounded by awesome friends :) love you guys :) and yup eww T not gonna accept your hug :P

AHH WHERES MY EPISODE 3 OF MWNS!! RAYMOND !!!!!!!!!!! :@

noooooooooo

T___T
LETS HOPE NO ONE GETS SICK ON THE YEAR 12 CONCERT T_____T
i have to learn all the moves even if im not part of the for good section :(
:(
so tiring learning themmm  :(
IM SOOO SCAREDD NEXT THURSDAY T__T omgah performing in front of teh WHOLE SCHOOL
OH SHIZZZLE
one short day int he emerald city :)
MUST LEARN IT AS WELL :( AND I REALLY HOPE ERIC DOES NOT SING T_____T FK GONNA kill my ears :p AND OMGAHH I TOUCHED HIS BLOOD .. EWWWW DONT liek sitting with him :P AAHHAHAH

anyways today was alright
Maths was bludgy as ever but ahaha i loved how leslie went maybe when we asked if she wanted to chip in for dike LOLSSS

CHEMISTRY I REALLY HATE YOU. T_____T alll we do is just copy notes and yerh prac was boring today too...

AND library AHAHAHH was alright today :) Had someone to talk to and yerh was fun :)

overall an alirght day :)

Liars

Yes i hate them.
Yes i can lie at times but its because i dont want the other party to feel sad or whatever...
BUT WHAT IS THIS?
wow
wow
i feel like soo cut
I HATE LIARS :@

~ BITCH ~

OMGAH IM SO ANGRY...
FAH what is this? bitch started flirting already? WTFFFF?
WOW THANX....
shows how much bitched loved me... wow wow...
what is this?

WOW
i knew something was going on........ FK I SHOULD HAVE LISTENED TO TRANG AND THE OTHERS.. FKKKK T_________T noww look at the mess ive got myself into..
STUPID BITCH

fah out
okay if it was a week later and started flirting yes i will be angry but not as angry as now.. WHO STARTS IT AFTER JUST 4 DAYS? WOWWWWWWW

Why bother?

Well sister informed me about the hit and run car accident in auburn near the berala jack and jill preschool. Wow its near my primary school too. Its sad to hear how some people just take no responsibility of their action. Its a life. A life gone because of one silly accident and lack of care and responsibility.

This got me thinking. Why am i crying about a breakup? I mean there are plenty of other guys in the future that i will meet. If this relationship failed and i tried but the other party failed to fix, whats the point? Everything happens for a reason. There are other people who would be happy living my life. I have school, friends and family. I have everything. My life has not ended. The man was a caring father but his life is now gonee. I should treasure my life and stop thinking of those silly stuff because of a breakup. I should just continue living and moving on.

But, its really hard to let go. I need to calm down now and think and that way i can study efficiently and better. *sigh life may be cruel but my life is already satisfying.

So, i shall not cry or be upset. Its his lost not mine. :) Hopefully i can bring this smile to school once again and shall today not repeat itself. Sorry WICKED people. I shall not repeat this same mistake again.

Time to move forward.

I'm not alone

Treasure life :)

不速之約

RAYMOND IS SO FREAKEN SCARY IN THIS DRAMA! BUT ohhh YERH HE LOOKS HOT AS USUAL :) SO CHOK :)
I LOVE YOU RAYMOND FOREVER <3 AHHHHH
so cute OMGAHH

i like his hair thehhheheh

EWW omgah two paper cuts..
fuck didnt put bandaid prob gonna be infected... uhoh
mans
im so careless. cut myself twice... and now it hurts :( :'(
careless vivo

Feels so shit

Mans im so sorry to the wicked act :(
i just broke down.
im sorry
i worked so hard and i eventually decided not to go on stage :(
sorry
i just felt so shit
everything has just struck me and i went out of control
Lucky i had my friends :) awesome ppls :)
SIBEL I MISS YOU MANS HAVENT TLKED TO YOU IN AGES :( LIKE ITS BEEN FOREVERRRR :( AHAHAH

well i feel so shit:
1. dumped wicked act because of some guy
2. broke down because of some guy
3. went crazy because of some guy
but what did he do?
Not reply. Silence. deleted me off fb. had so much fun with his friends. dont give a crap. broke up though a text? is that what a guy should do? wait not a guy. a chick who has no guts
Why am i like this?

I guess im not used to it yet i guess.
well okay vivo, calm down. chill. whats the point? why try when you know theres no point?
Really this person was not even worth your time vivo. chillax. why do so much when in return you get nothing? exactly
NOW I NEED A CHILL PILL hahas

Well just got my report back too............................. WORST THAN HALF YEARLIES ..... i tried as well in this one and yet i did shit. wow. wow. well i didnt try thattt much i mean i wasted my holidays because of that guy. during the two weeks after i didnt study much because of that guy.
Well im not blaming him but im blaming myself for fallign for him. Well 5 more weeks to hsc i should forget abt him. hes not worth my time. i tried to fix it. he didnt. like friend said prob finding other chicks atm to move on to. or maybe fell for another thats why hes so freaken happy. i dnno but i shouldnt care anymore...

*sigh im so depressed abt reports :( i thought i would do okay at least... i mean well maths was just come on expected. im happy.. but wtf 13 A''S FOR 4U? WTFF? THATS A BIT TOO MUCH... wow IM SO DISAPPOINTED ... TRY HARDER FOR HSC VIVO OR ELSE YOUR LIFE IS OVER :@

lets forget abt him

i hope i can

please someone help me......

Calm state of mind

*sigh

i really dont know what to do anymore
im lost
i have a headache
i dnno what is right and what is wrong
i dnno if i will ever regret..
i dnno
what should i do?

grr :@
FUCKEN HELL

ONE LITTLE THING JUST MADE ME PISSED :@

I HATE CRYING TO SLEEP... WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO HAPPEN...

really no one to turn to :(

fken hell
all of this have to happen 5 weeks before hsc.
FUCKEN HELL
GONNA FUCKEN FAIL AT THIS RATE

AHAHAHHHAHAH

Nathan Leong Oh wait, I DON'T HAVE ONE D<

AHAHAHAHHA OMGAHTHIS CRACKED ME UP AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAH
AHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA
YESH MADE MY DAY hahahsh

HAHHAH I HAVENT genuinely LAUGHED IN AGES ,..
 AHAHAHAHAHHA

Coon needs to take him to the hospital

nathan . says (11:58 PM)
use your spit
and rub it in
xD
LOL
ew..
bwahaha


OMGAH THIS GUY IS SO DISGUSTING AND DISTURBING.......
OMGAH
OMGAH
OMGAH
OMGAH
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

if i could delete you from my life, that would be amazing.

SCREW THIS

FUCKEN HELL
I just want to rant here and ughh pisses me off,..
freaken net dies all the time and
i cant fken study because of some fken issue on top of my fken head.

fucken hell
this is all shit
i dnt fken want to go skl tomorrow but stupid rehearsals. fk i finish at 1110 and now i have to stay behind BECAUSE OF FUCKEN REHEARSALS AT 230 .... fken hell im just gonna leave early tomorrow. i really cbf with anything.

everything turned out different than what i thought
this is stupid
high school love is the worst thing that can happen to one person. esp if its a horrible one. prob affect your hsc and taduh life is over...
fken hell
if i dont fken get into optom.. i prob fken suicide or whatever fken kill everyone or something..
SO FUCKEN PISSED

grrr  why didnt i listen to the others for.. .
FUCK

Why?

*sigh
Today i was meant to study or type notes :(
i have two more sections of astro and then im done. :( SO LONG :(
and
i have two more sections of shipwrecks and then im done :(
This is going to take forever :( FML

OMGAH I DONT GET ACTIVE OPTICS T__________T
So tired and today i could have finished physics but i was watching dramas :(
Fah why is virtue of harmony so funny :(

DRAMAS GET OUT OF MY LIFE AHAHAH

*sigh

I think his dream is going to come true :(

GAY GAY GAY

quote from terry: "you know whats funny.....life" Sigh turning into him. AHAHHAS :( uhoh yerh being a tard right now... i want to sleep now T___T and its only 9pm FK. AND I didnt do much work today. FK what a waste of my day. fken gonna fail my hsc :( FML will his wish really come true? >< please no

OH SHOOT ME

STUDY STUDY STUDY


GOSH ALREADY 5 WEEKS LEFT TILL HSC T__T
FML
SOMEONE SHOOT ME
THATS NOT ENOUGH TIME