maccas :)

ahhhh craving for maccas fillet o fish now..... at this time.. yesh....
OMFG IM BECOMING A FAT PIGGGG.. FML.
WELL I JUST WANT SOME MACCAS NOW.. AHHAHHAHAHAH
SO HUNGRYY
I HATE STUDYING
FML
IM SCREWED FOR THE TRIALS
SKIPPED 3 DAYS OF SKL AND DID NOTHING AHAHAHAH
STUPID VIVO
DUMDUM VIVO :)

WILD IMAGINATION

[11:04:26 PM] Vivian Ta: AAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHHAAHAAA OMGAHHH I LAUGH IF YOU WERE HAIVNG AHEM AND THEN THE GIRL STARTED TO HAVE HER PERIODS
[11:04:32 PM] Vivian Ta: AHAHAHAHHAAHH
[11:05:17 PM] david: wtf not cooool, WHY DID I IMAGINE THAT FML T_T
[11:05:48 PM] david: okok
[11:06:08 PM] Vivian Ta: HAHAHAHAHAH OMFGAHAHAHAHAAHAHAA OMGHAAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAAAA
[11:06:09 PM] Vivian Ta: ;)
[11:06:14 PM] Vivian Ta: OH YOU MUST LOVE THAT FEELING THEN :P
[11:08:02 PM] david: LOL dont laugh D: WHAT IF IT HAPPENS TO US HUH, DOUBLE WATERFALL OMGAH D: LOL

ahahahhaha OMGAH AHHAHAH HE ACTUALLY THOUGHT OF THAT.. OMFG... WHAT IS RUNNING THROUGH THAT BRAIN OF HIS AHHAHAHAHAHAHSH

救我。我想死。

The title basically explains this post. :)

FKEN SHOOT ME

Fken weather = fken shit day

This is fucken pissing me off. Ugh fuck i JUST FUCKEN CANT STUDY. OMGAH. FK. Omg really whats the point we're all going to die eventually. i dont mind ending it now, probably save all my energy instead. This whole study shit is pathetic AND whats more is im not happy with this relationship at all. fml. Today i saw him, it felt so awkward. I sort of felt sad when i saw him and i dont know but fuck this.

Shoot me now

I really dont know why, but im getting this feeling called jealousy again. Like okay i believe what he had said, but like i just dont know but im still thinking like he doesnt seem to have as much fun with me as with other girls. I dont know but i just feel so lonely and like hmmm i dnt know. I prob cant say it here because his friend knows this blog and like if he sees it he will probably tell him.

But mans my life is in a mess now and whats worse is my fucken lil sister is being the biggest bitch. I just told her not to scream because like its freaken loud as AND THEN she goes pissed and mumbling to herself and then FUCKEN HELL BUT SHE HAS ATTITUDE PROBLEMS. >.> like really she expects me to help her and buy her food but i only expect from her TO SHUT THE FUCK UP. Yerh and then that fucken big sister tells me to shut up. DUDE im trying to work here and YOU GUYS ARE FKEN SCREAMING. OF COURSE I HAVE TO TELL YOU GUYS TO SHUT THE FUCK UP. Seriously both my sisters are mentally retarded. Bigger sister is meant to teach the fken little one the right thing and she tells me to shut up. Im trying to study and do work. This is freaken weird.

And now my love life is getting to settle down a bit. But i still feel guilty okay. I admit i still do. He treats me soo well and this is what i give him in return. And with the other guy im just SO INSECURE. Like at the moment im thinking hmm hes probably not studying and probably having fun with other girls. Like i dont know but im very insecure around him.

And okay now its trials coming up. I didnt use this holidays well enough. Im currently failing maths because i just cant do it for some reason. English im basically screwed i havent started my speech. Physics im screwed even though i have done past papers its just some parts need memory work and i dont have that fken good memory. Chemistry is worse, so much memory work. JUST SHOOT ME. I am going to fail the trials. Oh great. First week of holidays were alright i kind of used it well. But when it came to the second week i just though of him him him him. He was everywhere. I couldnt study and when i tried going library i just couldnt study because of him and friends. I dont really work well in a group. I work better alone. FOREVER ALONE. :)

Anyways enough ranting, i must continue the physics past paper and then chemistry past paper then 4u maths hw and then read over notes for physics and chemistry. Great i will never be able to this in one day. My goals are all unrealistic

Give me time

PLEASEE GIVE ME TIME!!! I JUST WANT TIME TO THINK!! and LET ME BREATHE!!! please :( *sigh I just want to solve everything after the hsc. I know you are unsure if you can feel the same way, but i just want to do my hsc and get a good result. I just want to solve this all after the hsc because MY LIFE IS THE HSC. IF I FAIL I RATHER JUST SUICIDE THAN CONTINUE ON. I WANT MY FAMILY TO BE PROUD AND TELL THAT FKEN AUNT TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP LOOKING DOWN AT OUR FAMILY. well just give me time. please.

OPEN YOUR EYES

WAKEEEEEE UPPPPP VIVO!!!!!!! WAKE UP!! OMGAH I FELL ASLEEP ON MY NOTES AGAIN T___T i hate studying. ughh i dont know what is the best method. At the moment, all my notes are typed and im just going through memorising stuff i need to memorise and thats hard. I dont know if i should do past paper and then go study the notes. hmm ah wells.

but great i had to fall asleep and waste my time T__T i wasted 4 days of the holidays doing nothing but on msn and talking to people. Great. Im so productive. At this rate, i prob fail my trials. FML.

VIVO SHUT UP. DONT TALK. JUST STUDY. STOP PROCRASTINATING. STOP THINKING ABOUT STUPID STUFF. JUST STOP AND STUDY :)

STOP PROCRASTINATING VIVO!!

STOP PROCRASTINATING VIVO!! :( I MUST STUDY STUDY STUDY. funny how im on blogspot. BUT STILL.. I NEED SOME MOTIVATION. hmm like i say i want to get into optom, but it really isnt a form of motivation that can like motivate me to study. im just a freaken lazy girl :( i hate myself. :( why am i like this :( so slow. so stupid. omg :( cant even study. gosh WHAT CAN I DO? nothing T_____T .....

*sigh
OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT THIS. STUDY. :)

CANTO :)

elly baby says (1:08 AM)
add oil = canto!
Vivian Ta says (1:08 AM)
..............
elly baby says (1:08 AM)
byebyes ^^
"ga yow"
xD


wow add oil. NICEE :)

BEST QUOTE

Allan xD says (12:03 AM)
how's this for motivation
Life is like a house full of surprises. Sometimes you open the right doors, sometimes you don't. What is ineveitable is one day, you will open the right door. Whether it be now or in the future. This is because your special.


Wow this just sounds so hmm nice? It makes me feel relax and more calm. Wow :)

yay or nay?

Today i studied space well only first three sections. hopefully i can finished section 4 by 1am. I did one maths 4u past paper. IT WAS FREAKEN HARD T___T. i JUST WANT TO CRY T_____T. CSSA WHY SO HARD FOR :@:@:@:@
Anyways today he started a convo with me. He wanted to get back together. But i said no. Hmmm well in fact i do but i just dont know how to accept him back because its not that simple. I felt really depressed and what he said to me was just damn hurtful. So hopefully i can cure and we can be back together. So now we are just talKING. i hope this is the right decision. *Sigh

One funny thing was that he applied for a job at this tutoring place called "elite hsc preparation centre". He thought that was my tutor. BUT NAH AH LIL BOY it wasnt. ROFL. SO now he applied at the wrong centre and now he wont torture me :)
STUPID BOY :)

Ruined Day

Had to wake up early this morning for truongs. I wasnt in the mood for it. So borinG. I always fall asleep in class and OMFG I dont get anything in mechanics. oh somebody just shoot me :(

Class was soo long and boring. Ahahahs and WOOHOOO 5 WEEKS OF HOLIDAYS FOR TRUONGS :) OH YERHH :) and free lessons from now on :) OH yesh:) but damn i didnt go class for 3 weeks. I hope i can get a refund and then attend 3u and 4u for free :)

Then i had lunch. Boring. gosh I cant even make milo properly >.> my milo turned out REALLY REALLY white >.> Stupid. *Sigh was watching dramas when i had lunch. I miss my dramas.

And at 2pm, i had chemistry tutor. Hmm today i rather felt active while cornnie felt dead. OHH YERHH I CAN DO THE CHEM PAST PAPER :) except some but still afterall i havent revised everything yet. :) Then had to train it home. TEHEH then when i got to lidcombe I SAW ENA who had the spare time to go shopping AHAH. YOU LOOKED PRETTY TODAY ENA <3. Yerh then went home and watched a bit of drama and then continued with my maths past paper. Everyone left the house leaving me alone :( They went to celebrate my cousins bday and i was left alone to study. But tehhhehe im watching pokemon and doing past paper at the same time.teheh not really studying. i should start asap.

BUT THEN, this guy had to come along and piss me off again. I deleted you off facebook because you were so FUCKEN ANNOYING. And now i re-added you because afterall we are still friends, like we shouldnt just depart like that even if our relationship didnt work out. And YUP he deleted me on msn. I added him, he rejected. NICE. NICE. JUST RUINED MY DAY BY TELLING ME YOU DELETED ME OFF MSN and DO NOT WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME. Okay i deleted you because i was unhappy with you but i still want to friends and thats why i readded you. BUT YOU NO. YOU DONT EVEN WANT TO BE FRIENDS AT ALL. OKAY. wth. YERH DONT NEED TO TEL ME THAT. I FUCKEN HATE YOU. PISS ME OFF WHENVER I TALK TO YOU. YOU JUST HAD TO RUIN MY DAY.

LESBIANS :)

Vivian Ta says (10:13 PM)
BOYS ARE SOOO STUPID
like how stupid can they get
[b]Corn[/b] says (10:14 PM)
LMFAOOO
that's why
you should turn into a lesbian
with me
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AHAHAH CORN YOURE SOO FUNNNNY :)